Bittersweet Life...

Friday, June 11, 2004

didnt post yesterday. coz went home late, and sth happened. as usual i had lessons. after lessons, wenta KFC to eat with ema. aisyah couldnt make it coz she had the exco meeting. at KFC, ema was really distracted by Wild Wild Wet thingy.... wat's more, she was facing the theme park when we were eating at KFC! she kept cursing those ppl at the park juz coz she couldnt like realli go... her curses: hope there's terrorist to bomb the place, hope the slide will break. sth like tt lah... very bad lah she. i went back to sch, for fun. coz got np camp. but it was onli a day camp. wat the heck... staying at home is such a bore. stayed back with aisyah and rabia. highlight of yesterday's camp (in my opinion lah): sing along session. hehe... sir hafidz, u should noe wat i mean. hehe... it's juz a joke. chill lah.... glad tt u were sporting! thanks...

now the bad news. left sch sorta late... reached home late. at 8. to mum, it was late... but it's onli 8. and i still reached home. it's not like i merayap... needed to do some stuff... 4 next mon. tell u when it's over. she was not happy with me coming home at tt hr... hey, it's gd enuf tt i went home. then she asked 4 aisyah's no. reluctant to give... but i did nth wrong rite? so y fear? i cried...actually. for those of u who dun really noe me, or noe onli the fierce side of me, i can cry. i bottled up too much already. i hate it when mum doesnt trust me. dun care bout my dad, coz he's juz TOO over protective. mum said she was worried bout rape and all those latest crime happening. god! who wanna rape me? anyways, i noe how to be careful! sick of the same conversation with her bout not trusting me! i am grateful...and thank u very much for the concern. but, hey...chill! give me a try...if not, when will u ever see me stand on my own 2 feet?! she didnt believe me till she called aisyah's mum... see... she cant even believe her OWN daughter. guess wat? i cant stay overnite 4 np camp tonite.. while the rest will be having their laz nite together. argh! she really forces me to hate her...it's totally not my fault.

today, came to sch with really tired eyes...guess i cried too much. sorry feli 4 lying to u tiz morn... anyways, thanks 4 ur concern. and it was TORTURE during today's class. 4 hrs of A MATH! and we onli got like 5 mins break.. howvea...we were released early! yay! i was like a walking zombie juz now in sch... i was still very pissed... tired. surprisingly, managed to concentrate 4 the first 2 hrs. after class... went to see how was the np camp goin on. went home... did project. thiz madrasah project...so merepek! it IS really dumb!

so now here i am... still kinda pissed off wheneva talked to mum or dad. i have every rite to be rude...although i noe it's wrong.

Smashed into pieces at 6/11/2004 05:22:00 PM